Trust Again

All things considered, I’d say you are in a good space/place.  However, that said, I do want to caution you on the need to be “saved.”  It appears you suffer from somewhat of a conundrum.

On one hand you are very independent, know what you want or more importantly what you don’t want, and yet on the other hand you seek to consciously or unconsciously be saved.

You’ve entered every relationship in this manner and when the reality of the situation bubbles to the surface and you realize that no man or partner is filling that void, you seek to end the relationship labeling it a disappointment or failure.

This repetitive cycle of behavior will continue until you are honest with yourself that that is exactly what you are doing, and seek to earnestly deal with and transcend it. 

You are young at heart, in spirit and in looks, so you have the time to not only address the issue, but to also master its transcendence.  i.e., no excuses of time, or age, or ability.

Should you choose to not address the issue and continue confidently along, alone, it will be a conscious inside job; and as you know, you are a being of free will.  However, if the Universe were to wager, they would willfully place their bet on you doing the necessary work to overcome and transcend this issue.

You were born with many great attributes and you have a wealth of life knowledge and experience.  Thus, this is more like a natural progression in learning for you, an MBA if-you-will, than some strange, strenuous foreign class you have no interest in taking or clue in how to begin.

You are a master at everything you do and this is a required learning course in order to right your amazing vessel to its intended, desired port-of-call.  All great ships require a proper port or harbor in order to rest peacefully and display their beauty and magnitude with grace and ease.

Take the path less travelled and see if you don’t discover even greater depth and beauty inside, than you’ve yet to let out to date.

Your ship will sail, confidently into the future; however, it’s ultimately up to you as to what lies on the horizon upon which your eyes will feast.

Bon Courage et Bon Voyage