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Constant Waiting
- DATING/RELATIONSHIPS
- INFIDELITY
- SEXUAL ORIENTATION/IDENTITY
DearJames,
Married. Love my husband. Marriage not perfect but was satisfactory until recently. Almost one year ago, I met someone at my former job. Person was attracted to me instantly and sought me out. I gave in, not even sure why as was not initially attracted to respective individual. Am now in love and confused. The other person going through divorce, moved out about 3 months ago for reasons that supposedly have nothing to do with me. Me, I have no idea what to do. I feel torn and guilty. Can’t stop thinking about the other one. Coming home has become increasingly difficult. Very confused. Did not intend to get this far yet feel helpless to do anything now. Life goes in endless time slots between brief moments of seeing the other person. Everything in between is just constant waiting.
Gaya
Dear Constant Waiting,
I’m going to go out on a limb here and say not knowing what to do has more to do with you coming to terms with your own sexuality than it does not knowing what to do.
Climbing out of any box can be challenging, climbing out of one you willingly placed yourself in…terrifying.
Society loves to place everyone in neat and tidy little boxes so they can be labeled and examined under the microscope of judgment. Stereotypes are easy. They’re also dangerous, limiting, and debilitating.
Never allow yourself to be labeled and while we’re at it never label yourself.
Labels are for goods you purchase, not people.
Now that we’ve addressed that issue let us address the other elephant in the room. You’re married, you had an affair, you love your husband, but are not in-love with him, you can’t stop thinking about this “other” person, and life is one endless time slot between short visits with this other significant other.
That’s NO WAY TO LIVE!!!
Besides being incredibly unfair to your husband, you’re simply elongating the realities of your own truths. Again, no way to live.
The sooner you come to terms with you, the sooner you will be able to share that honesty with others. First on the list, your husband, then others. There is a freedom that comes with being truly honest with yourself that you simply cannot buy.
It unlocks your full potential to share earnestly with the world around you, positively influencing every aspect of your life, your being.
To hide or deny your truth is to waste the very essence of gifts God and the Universe bestowed upon you. Seek to align yourself with your greater truths as expeditiously as possible.
It may be painful and perhaps even gut-wrenching at times, however, eventually you will come into your own and shine your brilliant light for all to see.
Be happy, honest, honorable, and loving in life, as those are the only real labels you should ever truly aspire.