Life's Choices

By starting at the beginning, you come to understand and own where you have seemingly arrived.

I say seemingly because it is only your perception of life’s circumstances that colors them in positive or negative light.

Life is a series of choices and decisions, strung together to create a tapestry.

Your life tapestry interweaves with those of your family, friends, colleagues, etc., to form an even greater life fabric.

Each is responsible for themselves and the collective whole.

Thus, while your husbands job change may not have been great for you, it is and was right for him and the greater whole.

By carrying all the burden for far too long, he subjugated his happiness, wellbeing, and power enabling unhealthy choices by you and others.

Changing jobs was his way of reclaiming it while forcing other issues to the forefront.

By selecting a job, you knew would be harmful to your physical being, you reinforced your conscious desire to remain at home, locked in a self-made world of misery, deception, depression, and anger.

You became The Victim, and you don’t understand why everyone around you has tired of the recurring, helpless play playing out on a daily, weekly, monthly, yearly basis.

While this may sound harsh, in reality it is merely the wake-up call you and your family have been praying for.

The death of your mother triggered your depression and despair while amplifying your years old work injury.

However, it is your entitlement as The Victim that has held you and your family hostage; at least until your husband ceased being an enabler to the recurring plot.

Once you come to terms with the truth of these words and you course correct, life will instantly begin improving.

However, it will be your deeds, not your words that will bring forth all that you seek: everything and everyone back into balance and harmony, your daughter included.

Seek immediate professional help for your depression, chronic back pain, and dependency on pain relief medications.

Concurrently, seek to find employment that is more suitable to your overall physical and mental health and wellbeing, meaning something you LOVE.

Finally, trust that when you lean into your soul-source connection, it leans into you.

Thus miracles, both large and small, enter your life, forever changing the landscape of your life tapestry and its associated experiences.

And therein lies the beauty of Source illuminating your Life’s Choices.